What makes us unhappy?
So We are still here in limbo wondering what comes next and why things aren't changing. Life is funny though, we all seem to think that great things will just fall in our laps. . . Well, at least subconsciously that's how I've been living and for the most part, it has worked quite well. I've been able to have a fairly adventurous fulfilling life but when I come to a road block like I'm in I wonder why things aren't different. I want what most people want. . . A life that has purpose, meaning, fulfillment, and greatness. But I had the epiphany that a great life does not just fall into a person's lap, a great life comes from intentionality and pursuit. . . Apathy does not add to a great life. Living a great life for Jesus is the same. Sure God brings blessings and greatness into the lives of those who follow him but the mark of a really great life is a close personal relationship with Jesus Christ. This close relationship does not happen as a result of apathy and waiting for it to fall into your lap. So why am I not more intentional in my relationship with Christ. Is this ultimately why I am unhappy with life at the moment? It's so easy for things to creep into our lives that build walls between us and God without even realizing it. I have read that the worst thing that satan can do to us is to trick us into wasting our time. I have wasted too much time.
I have realized what it is that is making me unhappy. It's not that my job sucks. (it does but that's not the cause of my grief) It's not because I am currently living in my parent's basement. (it's really nice down here and I love my parents) It is for 3 reasons that I can think of 1. Spiritual Apathy has become prevalent in my life. 2. I have allowed myself to become overweight and out of shape and really don't like myself for it. 3. I have not been very responsible with my finances and have dug myself a hole.
Out of these three things, the first is definitely the worst of the bunch. Why am I rambling on and on about this sort of thing. . . I don't know. Maybe I just want other people to know where I am at and could use prayer.
The only good thing about being down is that I know I can be pulled out by the saving grace of Jesus. I know that I am being lifted out of this hole right now. Praise God.
posted by Jay&Michelle @ 9:24 PM
2 Comments:
I was feeling a bit like you and I read 1 Peter 1 and it put things into perspective. As crappy as things get there are still reasons for joy in our life. I don't know if that helps. On the upside living in BH means you get to see me at least once a week. :)
I totally agree with you Jay. I think that God is beginning to move in a way that will be undeniable and unstoppable. I'm excited for you to be realizing a state of spiritual apathy in your heart right now. And I can see, through your words, that He is beginging to change that in you. It's a powerful thing to confess things to each other and ask for prayer. We will be praying for you and I don't know if either of us will be ready for the answer God will bring.
Hertz
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